Where do I go?

This photograph I am really, really proud of. I was not expecting the mood to be this strong. But after BW post processing in Apple Aperture the finished product was rather brilliant, in a sad kind of way.

I call this "Where do I go?". A picture of a man at the end of a broken bridge (the person in the picture is my good friend Trygve). It depicts how I feel presently: at a dead end, and the only way to get across is to literally, jump in the water, and risk getting wet, or drowning.

Do not get me wrong. I do not at all feel that I am depressed. I feel, though, as if life is throwing me off the comfortable, mundane world  ("wall") which I built to protect myself from more heartache. In a way I am thankful that this has happened. Life is without its risks. And I have always been a risk taker. I have always been the kind of person who wears his heart on his sleeve, a man who likes a challange, who feels that the easy was is not the way to go. Apparently the wall that I built around myself also prevents the good things from entering my life.

So I feel that something HUGE is about to happen. I just have to jump in the water!